* We BeLoNg tOgEtHeR <3

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-06-16T10:37:00

2005-06-16T14:49:57Z

dayumm.. it's been a long time! ((sorry Jessica:-p))

things are going pretty good for the most part, except that I f'ckin haaaate my job! oh man... I really can't stand it anymore. shit is gettin retarded there. but I have to stay there at least till the end of the summer.. hm... how much longer? lol

*anyways*

my birthday was awesome. Me, Shane, Lindsey, David, Malcolm, Mike and Mylott went up to the beach for the night. While the boys went down to Hampton, Me & Linz attempted to find a friggen grocery store... about and hour and a half later we finally got to one! lol.. it was funny shit. Then on our way back, Shane & David called us and they wanted to come back so we could all just chill at my beach house, so we ventured over to get them. When we got back to the house, we play a "lil" bit of beer pong. or should we say SHOT pong! lol.. oh mannn.. for the first time, I was totally trashed! I couldn't even believe it! It was so funny. We lost. but if the boys would have stopped cheating we would have won! dumbasses. while David took care of Lindsey, Me and My Baby hung out O:-) then he attempted to get me to go for a swim.. luckly I didn't, I probably would have drowned!! lol.. he's so thoughtful. I don't really remember much from that night, except something about lobster turtles laying eggs.. lol.. and of course I remember falling asleep and being in my baby's arms all night :) I love him so much <33

havent really done much since then.. just been working alot. of course. did I mention I hate my job? :-D

tomorrow night I think a bunch of us are going up to the old Insane Assylums.. should be fun.

well I guess I'm going to go.. my baby should be down here in a few minutes :)
I'll write again sometime soon.. I hope! lol.. * peace out babydoll

Sb * I've got eyes only for you <33 I Love You Sweeti

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-06-06T13:38:00

2005-06-06T17:37:05Z

I just want to say that I love my boyfriend very much, and if anyone thinks they are going to come between us.. they got another thing comin! :)

Wednesday is my birthday! yeahhhh boy. I'm excited.. a bunch of us are going up to stay at my beach house n just chill. la de daa. It'll be alota fun. I cant wait to spend the whole night in my baby's arms!! <33

well gotta go.. I'll write more later. peace babe

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-06-02T09:13:00

2005-06-02T13:15:08Z

well, Hello there :o)

for the most part things are going pretty good. Here is a rundown of my weekend:

Friday Night - I had to work till 6, then Shane picked me up and we went to get Jessica. Then we went on a little ride, and got James. From there we all went Galactic bowling. It was fun! I hadn't been there in so long.. lol. Of course, Shane didn't think it was all that I built it up to be.. but whatttever. After that I slept over Jessica's!

Saturday - I had to work till 330, then Shane picked me up and we went to visit his parents that were camping. Then went back to his house, and got ready for the party. At about 830 I met up with Jessica and we went back to Shane's. There were madd people there. We only stayed until like 11:30 though cause I was tired and so wasn't my Jessica.

Sunday - I went to church with my Grandmother then went to Shane's.. brought the boys some lunch and helped pick up. I had to work from 3-8 so I didn't stay there long. After work I just stopped by to say Hi to Shane, and met up with the girls there… Then we headed off for our * girls night!! -Man Oh Man-that was so much fun. Let's just say that it was quite the eventful night! lol ((right ladies?!)) Chicks with no dicks. That's all we are! lol wow.. it was awesome.

Monday - Woke up about 9:30 ((working off about 4 hours of sleep!)) then left Melissa's and went to Shane's. I woke my baby up! lol.. I felt kinda bad, but that's what he gets for being drunk all weekend! Then we just cleaned up his house SOME MORE, and waited for his parents to get home. After we helped them settle in, I went home and showered to get ready for the bbq. Not that many people showed up - but I didn't blame them, it was raining! Ahh. It was only Me & Shane, Nicole & Matt, Melissa & Austin, Mike, Logan, Shaun, and Mylott. It was fun though. After we just went on a ride to Daeshaun's house. Then I just went home.

So overall, it was a pretty good weekend. Best one in a long time anyways!

Tuesday we had the class relay's… of course o6' took em' all. Yeahh boy.

But the rest of my week has been pretty dumb.. I have to work today, closing once again! Fuckin bitch. Then on Satuday I have to work from 12-9!! Ahhhhh.. I hate my job! At least my Jessica will be there!

Well I guess I'm gunna go.. B.Grillo's class is almost over

Leave one if ya wanna <33

Sb * ilymtab - wwgtatcow! ymwbb

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-27T10:58:00

2005-05-27T15:07:26Z

de dum.. I'm in accounting right now, its kinda boring. I'm all done my project so I've got nothing left to do. It's just Me and Josh left pretty much… all our friends are graduating!! :o( I'm gunna miss them -so- much, its gunna be wicked boring! Owell, at least I'm not alone.

I have to work today, only 3 hours so its not really a big deal. Then We're going Galatic Bowling! Lol… I haven't been there in so long. And Mr. Boucher <3 is coming with us… which makes me really happy. I love him :o)

Well I guess I'm going to go, Joshua is presenting his project so I should be listening before crazy lady yells at me! Haha

Hope ya have a good weekend * xO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-26T22:19:00

2005-05-27T02:22:51Z

May 26, 2005 *

Shane Travis Boucher -- Words cant express the things you have done for me in this past year. We've been through so much.. more than we needed, but in the end it has only made us that much stronger. You've been there in times when I've needed you most. When I look at you, I not only see the man I'm in love with... but I see my best friend. The one that I know is there for me night and day... the one that loves me no matter what is wrong. & I'll give it to ya babe, it hasn't been easy.. I know You've put up with a lot in this past year from me.. whether it be my mood swings, or just me being a straigh out bitch, it didn't matter... cause in the end, we're right back where we were a year ago & that's what is most important. I'm so in love with you baby, and I'll never give up on us <33 We belong together

. . . I Love You . . .
You are my everything!

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-23T21:20:00

2005-05-24T01:27:31Z

I just want to say that today was the worst day ever.

all day long, I had a headache.. and fought with myself to not talk to him. Then after school, I gave in, went over and talked... cried... talked and cried some more. Didnt really get much resloved.. but I had to go. Then I went up to G Vegas picked up *Jessica and went to get my nails done. After that I came home, and recieved some really really sad news...

my beautiful little white, 9 month old kitty --Lexie Marie-- got hit by a car this morning. and I guess by the time my grandmother found her, it was too late. I cant believe it. I was just yelling at her last night to stop crying by the door. She wasn't supposed to be an outdoor cat, she was so small. I knew I should have kept her inside. She was just to young... I mean, Nine months old. god... I couldn't believe how upset I got. I just started crying hysterically. Then when I told Shane, he got all teary eyed too... she was -our- cat.. our second lost child. I guess I'm just never meant to have any pets :-\ ((R.i.P - LeXiE MaRiE.. my little skank. ily))

leave one, maybe it'll make me smile.....
doubt it -- but its worth a shot </3 xo

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-22T19:02:00

2005-05-23T02:10:08Z

not much to say about my weekend.. didn't go how I planned at all

one thing that I do know, is that I wont let him do this to me anymore. as soon as things start to get better, something happens and we fight all over again. it seems like i'm always hurting... and I just cant keep living like this. I just wont do it. until he sets his priorities straight again, then I am done. I cant do this. It hurts me more than anything to not talk to him, to not see him.. to not hear his laugh, or kiss his face.. but a person can only take so much. I love him with all my heart, I really do... but sometimes, love just isnt enough

leave one to make me smile.... please.

((jLc -- thank you for being there girl.. don't know what I woulda done. iLy! bffe))
[[sAf -- always there when I need you. thanks a whole bunch hun! iLy! s sqaured! lol]]

..sTb.. "I still believe, someday you and me will find ourselves in love again"
I just cant do this right now.. I dont think you see how much your hurting me..
goodbye my sweetheart.. I will always love you, and you know that. o5.26.o4 </3

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-21T14:40:00

2005-05-21T18:43:08Z

yupp... well I guess I didnt make cheering. I kinda thought I wouldnt, just because I only have my backhandspring with a light spotter. urgh. owell.. I really wanted it, but what can ya do? life goes on!

- - - - >

then me and Mr. Boucher <33 went out on a date! lol.. we went and saw 'Star Wars' lol. I def. fell asleep like 20 minutes into it. but then I woke up like 2 hours later, just to see the end of it. but it was really cute, the whole time I was sleeping he still held my hand or was rubbing my leg. -I think the boy I fell in love with is starting to come back!!!!- yay. I'm excited.

this morning I woke up with a horrible stomache and headache... so I called out. I didnt really want to, cause its money.. but I just couldnt go in like that. I just woke up about 25 minutes ago actually. lol. so now, I am waiting for Shane to get here! :o)

hope today is a better day <33 later babes

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-20T15:59:00

2005-05-20T20:10:42Z

well.. here I am at Mr. Boucher's house <33 booooored out of my mind. lol. I'm watching his little brother but he is in his room playing X-Box so that does me no good. haha

anyways--

cheering tryouts tonight.. I hope that I make it! hmmm.. [x] cross my fingers!!! then I dont know what I am doing... I think that Me & Shane might go to the movies or something ::ya know, a date ;-):: lol

ya know how nice of a girl I am? I made his family a chicked pot pie cause Tracy is away on a business trip! lol. I am such a sweetheart :o)

dum de dum.. I'm so exhausted. I went to bed at 12:30 last night.. I dont really know why, I just couldn't fall asleep. I hate nights like that! and then.. I have to work tomorrow morning at 8:30, that should be a blast. yippie! at least Jessica is working. I think...? lol. I hope so!!

on a random note, I am getting so much better at driving my car!! I am proud of myself. Me and Sam went out for breakfast this morning and I so good, in traffic and all! lol. Me & Her are getting really close again, so I'm happy <3 Thanks for all the laughs girlie! I love ya!! xO

wellll..... I guess I am going to go lay on the couch & wait, patiently! lol. ~ hope ya'll have a good weekend! :o)

love takes time to heal, but baby I still believe in us <33 always

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-16T01:45:00

2005-05-16T04:15:15Z

i dont remember reading in my horoscope that i'd have my heart broken today </3

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-15T11:31:00

2005-05-15T15:36:16Z

ick. I really hate the rain. it makes me sad :(

I have to work today from 2-745... that shit sucks.

*PrOm* was on friday.. I had a lot of fun, my baby looked really good. We took some beautiful pictures. My hair really didnt come out the way that I wanted it to, but I grew to get used to it. & plus, the look on Shane's face when he frist saw me, made all of the preperation worth it. I love him so much. He didn't even have to say anything, I just knew by looking at him what he was thinking. After Prom, we went to David's house.. I only stayed till like 230 cause I was madd tired and didnt feel like being there but I guess he passed out at like 3:30..lol.. that boy cracks me up.

11 days till our 1 year! I'm so excited.. of course we probably aren't doing anything cause the class relay's are that night, and I know he'll want to be there.. so he will just have to make it up to me! ;-) yeahhh boy!

well I guess that I am going to go lay down till he calls me to go get him.. lazy ass! haha

leave one <33 xO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-13T16:00:00

2005-05-13T20:06:21Z

I just want to say that... PROM is tonight! :) yeahhh baby..

I wasn't exctied really.. but now I am! yay.

well I gotta finish gettin ready.. see ya there ;-)

Sb <3 Tonight is our night baby. I Love You So Much

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-05-08T09:38:00

2005-05-08T14:19:40Z

MoThEr'S dAy :o)

^ Not that it means much of anything, I probably wont see my mother anyways. lol. owell..

My weekend was pretty good. On Friday, Jessica came over and we went to get my prom dress, I love it. Its so beautiful. [speaking of PrOm.. 5 days! yeahh boy! I can't wait to see how good my baby is going to look.. on man. I'm so excited!] Then we just came back here got my car, and went to visit my Uncle and Nana at Leominster Hospital. She was so scared. lol. It was kinda funny :-p not to metion the drive there was funny as shit! oh man.. I hope I get better at driving this car! haha. - Saturday I worked till 3, then went and picked up Mr. Boucher <3 and we went to visit my Uncle again. Then we came back to my house, *hung out for a bit* then went and blazed with E Dot n Ros. It was fun. When we brought them home, we just watch a movie.. I fell asleep though. lol. Woops! I brought him home at like midnight, then just went to bed.

but now... I have to go get ready for church with the old' lady :-p lol. I love her though.

hope ya'll had as much fun as I did this weekend :o) xO

Sb <3 always new excitements! lol.. I'm so in love with you baby <33 18 days!

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-29T20:24:00

2005-04-30T00:31:11Z

yeahh baby -- I got my new car! :) I love it.. its adorable! Me & My Babe' pimpin it in the Jetta 8-)

: _ anyways _ :

things have been kinda rough in my family lately. My Nana is in the hospital, and they don't really know whats going on. She is in critical condition, and on a respirator. Not good. not good at all. I'm scared. but alls we can do is pray right now.. [[please keep me in your prayers..]] God Please Help Her <33

I don't really have anything eles to write about, but I must say.. I love Mr. Shane Travis Boucher with all my heart. We're doing really good right now, which makes everything a little easier. He is everything to me.. and he makes me smile so much, more than anyone ever has. its times like these when I'm really thankful for the time I have with the people I love. You never know when it'll be too late, and that scares me. I cherish every single moment with him --sigh* I'm so in love :)

well I'm going to go take a little drive in my car..
or at least try too!! lol.. oh man. this should be fun! xO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-25T22:28:00

2005-04-26T02:45:04Z

sooo yeah.. back to school today. shit sucks. but w/e summers almost here <33

I had to work today 3-8, but then they only had one bagger till 9, so me being the nice girl I am.. stayed till 9. urgh. owell.. its money. I'm workin 26 hours this week. good thing, cause I'm only workin 14 next week! I need a new job. or maybe just another one. hmmm.. no idea.

I was supposed to get my car today, but noooo something is being done to it, so I might have to wait a few more days. ahhh! I just want it so bad. Its so cute.. and I dono, I'm just mad excited about it.

Tomorrow makes * 11 months * for Me and Shane! damnnn -- I love that boy so much. We're finally back on our feet. I couldn't be happier. We had the cutest day yesterday. I did the March of Dimes in the morning, then went to his house. From there we watched a movie for a little bit with his mom, then we came here to eat. And then we went up to G-Vegas and went bowling with Ronn, my sister Dakota, Rachel and her boyfriend Jared. it was fun. Then We no sooner got home, and went back to Gardner, all for nothing! lol. After that we took his little brother fishing.. didn't catch anything besides a bush, and a guard rail. [lol.. right Mr. Boucher?! :-p haha.. niiice try baby. maybe next time] Then we just came back here, cooked on the grill.. lit a fire, and just hung out. It was the best day of the whole vacation. I loved it <3

::: guesssss what!! :::

MY JESSICA IS HOME! :-D yeessssa!
I'm so happy. I really missed her, a lot!

but I think I'm gunna go to bed. I'm beat! * xO goodnight

Sb <3 Through it all baby.. it'll always come back to Me & You. it just has too, we're meant to be together. Your my world hun, and I wouldn't have it any other way. I love you * here's to the memories we have, and alllll the ones we still have ahead of us. <33 May 26, 2004 - always and forever :o)

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-19T09:34:00

2005-04-19T13:45:36Z

tuesday morning, vacation.. and I'm up at fuckin 9:30.. wtf is that?! urgh. w/e. Its probably cause Mr. Boucher feels the need to call and wake me up just because his ass has to work everyday at 8! lol. what a kid.

so far vacation has been good -- I MISS MY JESSICA THOUGH!! :( I bet she's having a blast.

On Saturday I didnt really do much, worked till 3, then came home.. talked with my dad for a little bit (about my car coughcough :-D), then went and rented a few movies, picked up some chinese food.. and plopped my ass on my couch. lol. Then Shane came over when he got home & we watched 'Wicked Park' it was really good. He didn't understand it.. but thats no suprise. He left @ about 12, then I went to bed <3

Sunday - filled with quite a bit of drama.. but owell - I worked till 6 then came home & got ready... Me & Sarah Marie went to Sh*Booms. It was fun I guess.. but it took us f'ckin 40 minutes to get in, so by the time we got in we only had like an hour and a half there. lol. Owell. We saw Vonshaxi and some kids from school on our way in there. Then when we were going in I saw Shanes cousin, Lauren. After we had been dancing around for awhile I saw Kait & Mel.. long time since Ive seen them! lol. It was pretty fun overall though.

Yesterday - Sarah, Me, My Mem, Paula & Nathan all went up to Maine for the day. We just sat out on the beach and absorbed the sun.. it was so beautiful. Then we went out to eat at 'Mike's Clam Shack' it was so good. mhmmm. Then we went for a little ride to Perkins Cove, and just headed home. Its so peaceful up there.. everyone is so nice.. and people just seem so happy. :sigh: owell, thats why they call it "Vacationland". Then I went over Shane's for a little bit till he had to work. After that I went up and hung out with my step mom & my sister for the rest of the night. lol. I'm a dork I know I know. When Shane got out, we went up to try to rescue my mom... but that didn't really happy anything. lol. drama drama drama.

and then..

ToDaY, I'm going to watch my 2 hours of Dawson's Creek! :-D :-D Then I'm going to take a nice walk outside. It's so beautiful out.. why should I stay inside?! haha. Of course, I have to work tonight till 8! urgh. damn bastards. but then I don't really know what I'm doing.. maybe hanging out with Shane? hmm.. who knows.

but I think I've updated enough, so I'm going to go start warming up my couch in anticipation for my show to come on! yesssssa I love vacation!

<3 leave some love

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-14T22:07:00

2005-04-15T02:19:10Z

ahh... its been so long! sorry babe :)

I don't really know where to begin. But things are going good for the most part. I'm slowly finding myself again, which is a big thing. I can finally look at life, and smile. Not everything is where I'd like it.. but it's on it's way. Afterall, love takes time to heal. Right babyboy? [[* iLy.. & eigtbf, ip!]]

so tomorrow is friday, the day before vacation.. and I def. don't think that I'm going. whats the point? we aren't going to do anything anyways. I just have to figure out what to say to the old lady 8-) lol. then I have to work 3-7, which isn't that bad. then after work my dad is meeting me up there and we're going to look at this 01' Jetta, I'm so excited! the only problem is, its a standard.. opps! lol. owell, I'll learn. I'm just going to have a really hard time text messaging and driving at the same time. haha juuuust kidding! I'll be safe!

-anywho-

my Jessica is leaving on saturday :( what am I going to do?! I'm really going to miss her.. not to mention, I am so jealous! lol :-[

I can't wait to just sleep in though. I am really excited for that. I think on Monday, I might go with my grandmother up to Maine just to see the ocean. I hope we go.. maybe Mr. Boucher will come :) <3

okay, well I'm going to go to bed. I havent been getting much sleep lately. I wonder whats wrong :( maybe I miss him too much.. or maybe I'm just so excited to see him in the morning, that I can't fall asleep. hmmm.. I dono homie. but either way -- goodnight dawg * xOxO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-04T18:56:00

2005-04-04T23:01:23Z

ahhh.. I have such a friggen headache! I dont know whats wrong with me. My grandmother says its too much stress, but I just think its a little bit of everything all together.

today we had a field trip to Bentley College. it was fun. not the greatest thing ever, but better than being in school. thats for sure!

then after that I went with Shane to his dentist appt. cause I'm a nice girl like that :) and when I brought him home, I went for a quick tanning session.. then went and picked up Melissa & we went to clean my truck. I felt like one of those people who lives in their vehicle.. cause there was so much damn shit in there! ah. it was fun though.. always have fun with that girl *

now here I am home, bored.. with lots of stuff I should be doing.. but I'm too lazy! haha. story of my whole life. always procrastinating! owell.. what can ya do!?

I think I'm gunna go lay on the couch & start my new book <3 ttyl babe

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-04-02T18:11:00

2005-04-02T23:31:20Z

dum de dum..

I'm so friggen bored. Me & Sarah are goin out in a little bit, bit she's not even in the shower yet, & so I figure it will be about another 2 hours. lol. I think we're just gunna be gay and go bowling. lol. We used to go all the time.. even if its just by ourselves, we'll still have fun :)

my day wasn't that bad, work was okay and everything, worked with all the usual good people. lol. right Jessica ;-) last night kinda sucked.. but thats life.

sometimes I miss him :so: much, it feels like I'll break down. and I think that's when its the hardest. like, I'll hear songs.. this one for example ((true by ryan cabrera)) and its takes all I have NoT to cry. Then its nights like last night, when he could careless.. it makes me wonder why we do it to eachother. I mean.. if you really care about someone, your not supposed to hurt them. right? :-\ but then he called me this morning, and we was so upset.. and I knew he was hurting just as much as me. I just dont understand.. if he is just as hurt.. then why did it happen in the first place? I dono... I guess you can't learn from your mistakes if you don't make them...? er.

I remember all the memories we have.. everything from just going to the movies, to him cooking dinner on valentines day. or the whole day we spend at the apple farm just being goofy. -or one time, when we got in this huge fight.. he went storming off. and all I could do was cry, so I went to bed. then he came back, came in my room.. with tears streaming down his face.. and said he was sorry.. told me he loved me and that all's we had was eachother.- or even more recently, the night in boston. Just the little memories.. like the note he left on my windshield when I went to Sh*Booms.. saying He missed me like crazy & he loved me. It's those ones.. that make this so hard. Cause I know how happy we once were. and now I see how miserable we are. It makes me wonder where it makes sense? How can someone make you so happy.. yet so sad? I guess the only explination is life, and love. Together they can be amazing.. but without one.. the other is pointless. Love makes life what it is. Its the reason I wake up in the morning hoping for :this: to be the day.. the day my world is put back together. Then as I fall asleep.. I realize, it was just another pointless.. lonely day </3 well.. I'm out. leave some thoughts.. please *

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-31T22:19:00

2005-04-01T03:31:33Z

I dont really have much to write about..

My week has been pretty good. Me & Jessica went and paid off my dress on Wednesday, so the lady ordered it. I am so excited. I love it. I cant wait till prom. Its a deep blue so Shane's eyes are going to look amazing! lol. I've been going tanning a few times a week, but I'm gunna have to step it up a few levels before Prom. I wanna look bangin! Of course, Shane doesnt care what the dress looks like on.. he's wondering how good its gunna look on the floor. lol. He's such a pig.

anyways -- Me & my girl Sarah went to the street hockey game tonight. & I must say, they got there asses handed to them. haha. It was fun tho :) I love hangin out with that girl.

but I think I'm gunna go.. hope ya'll have a good weekend <3

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crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-28T22:39:00

2005-03-29T03:50:51Z

damn.. I am so exhausted! but I figured that because its been a long time, and because Jessica wont stop bitching about how long its taken me, I would actually write in here tonight :)

my weekend was pretty awesome. I smiled so much, and was actually happy. for no reason.. just because. like for example, I was at work at 8:30 on Saturday morning.. and I was full of smiles, what kinda shit is that!? lol. I only worked till 3, then I spent Saturday night with Shane. We colored eggs & went to the BC hockey game in Worcester.. it felt like the good old days' :o) Then Easter Sunday he called me at 8 o'clock, woke me up to go over and look for eggs with him and his brother. lol. it was cute though. Then we ALL went to church.. even his dad! after that He came with me to my Aunts house for dinner.. then we went to his house, then up to my moms.. then celebrated Easter our own way O:-) lol.[ 3 out of 5? hmm.. not too shabby Mr. Boucher :-p] Things are really starting to turn back around between Him & I.. and I am so glad. I love that boy more than anything <3

today, School was okay.. got away with some funny shit F period. lol.. skillz! :-p then I had to work from 3:30 - 9.. which wasnt really that bad. I worked with good people.. some of which included my Jessica :-D yay. She is coming with me on Wednesday to get my dress.. I'm excited!

tomorrow I have to work 4 - 9 again! damn -- I hate closing. urgh. owell its money! yeaaah baby.

well I guess I'm gunna go to bed.. cause I'm mad tired :(

leave some love ~ * xO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-25T08:40:00

2005-03-25T13:49:10Z

I really dont know what my problem is.. I cant sleep anymore! Its like my only day off and I was up at 730! wtf is that?! urgh.

so yeah -- my girls night didnt end up being to big of a thing, which I'm glad cause I wasnt really up for a huge thing. Nicole picked me up at like 830, then we went driving around with Matt. Then after that we picked up Baker from work, and went to burger king. After we brought Matt home, us 3 girls went to Ian's house. There was quite a bit of people there.. but not too many that it was gay. We only stayed there for like an hour or maybe a little bit longer, then Me & Melissa just came back here. we ordered some chinese food ((we felt bad cause it was like 12:15 and they closed at 12:30.. woops! lol)) and we just watched "Down to You". it was fun. I love that movie. Made us both kinda sad.. lol, but what can ya do?! Then we just layed around talkin till we fell asleep. It was a good night.

yesterday, I went up and got my check then picked up Shane. we went down to the mall with his little brother for my sisters birthday party.. it was cute. (( ps Mr Boucher - who won that game?! lol.. haha sucka!)) but then we went to his street hockey game, which I froze my ass off at for like 2 hours! after that we just went for a ride with a few ppl. when we dropped them off, Shane and I talked for a bit.. then I came home <33

now I am bored out of my fucking mind! how come everyone is still sleeping? why isnt someone else crazy like I am?! lol. hmmm... maybe I will call up and see if there's any tanning appointments available today. that might make me feel better. then I think I am going to go shopping.. yeah.. sounds like a def. plan!

call the cell if ya wanna chill today -- u got tha digits! ;-)

<3 lots of love :: xOxO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-23T20:07:00

2005-03-24T01:11:53Z

ahhh I'm in such a good mood <3 I got my hair done right after school.. and I must say, my confidence is back! yeaaaah boy. I love it! then I went and visited with my step mom for like an hour.. I love that women. she is awesome.

now I am just waiting for the girls to come over.. we're having a fun filled, icecream/junk food eating, boybashing, wonderful night :-) I cant wait. Its really what I need. I'm excited. I think we're all going to stop by Ian's for a little bit.. he's having a party at his crib. I wonder how that will go over. I don't think we are staying for too long though. Thankfully. We're just going to make an appearance, cause we wanna see if its going to actually be all it was made up to be. haha..

well I guess I'm gunna go finish cleaning up n shit..

have a good weekend folks <3 I know I will!

leave me some love * please xOxO

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-22T14:29:00

2005-03-22T19:33:13Z

oh man -- its such a beautiful day out! I love this weather.. it reminds me of being happy.. -sigh-

last night me & Jessica went to the mall.. I ended up getting everything, but what I was looking for! urgh.. owell I got these cute shoes and a few new shirts. nothing like shopping to clear a girls head! tx Jessica.. I love you girlie *

today was a pretty good day.. my girl Nicole made me smile alot. hopefully we're having a girls night tomorrow night.. I need it! lol. today at lunch we had some of the retards hitting on us saying "bootylicious!" over and over again lol.. thanks to Mr. Boucher! I could have killed him! haha

now I'm going to work till 845, then I dont know.. maybe I'll just go for a long drive after.. clear my head. hm.. sounds like a good idea! well im out -- holla at cha girl 8-)

crazzy_bout_you @ 2005-03-21T15:05:00

2005-03-21T20:12:50Z

well.. I know I said it would be awhile before I wrote in here.. but I decided that the best thing for me to do is write. so thats exactly what I'm going to do.

today was kinda hard, but I knew it. I expected it. I just hate when people feel the need to talk about it like I'm not around. like I dont hear everything they are saying. and really.. there is no need for pitty looks. I will be fine, with no help from anyone. I'm going to get through this. I really miss him.. but we both know that this is what we need. a little break, time to acutally miss eachother. Its just hard, cause its not just him that I miss.. its his family too. I mean, granted I can go over there whenever I want.. but still, I wont feel the same. not right now anyways. -- but things always get better. just gotta have a little bit of faith, and a lot of strength.

anyways, I'm gunna go read my book, then pic up Ryan [[at least I get to spend some time with the lil boucher :-) ]] then my Jessica is coming over <3 gotta love her.

peace out gangsters
leave some love please *